Arriving, as if by magic. That and a life's hard work of empowering my Sacred to learn how to be magical ~Riding the New Year's Full Moon's currents, unbeknownst in my designs, the higher power I've long given my personal will to, choosing to consciously embody my Higher Self's will, continues to carry me along, magnificently.
Backstory: Having been introduced to formal meditation in the early 70s, I'd found my way to a Vedanta Temple in my neighborhood on Chicago's South Side. The seeds long planted ... Somehow taking to this very exotic yet, strikingly familiar setting, I was pleasantly though not too surprised to come upon a Temple last year, near where I lived in Portland.
To date: as my recent sub-lease ran out at year's end, five days before having to leave, the next place I'd lined up turned another way and was rented out from under me. From low and behold to high-on-the-updraft, the Temple here has a 125 acre retreat facility in the country 45mins out of town. With a work/trade vacancy open. For moi.
For over 20yrs I've wanted to go on retreat around my birthday. To get away, to get quiet, centered and clear - to take in where I've come from and envision where I want to go. Kinda like a life review and intention preview. Now having just left a major watershed year of change, this one ahead promises to be so much ... MORE!
No doubt we'll all find out, won't we? And yet assuredly, more it will be on all fronts, that's for sure. Of course the tricky part for all people on Earth now, is to keep from going more and more nuts, as 2018 barrels along. If last year is any indication. Oh my ...
Thus, the utter perfection of being fortuitously guided here to decompress, go inside and chill amongst acres of stillness, deep quiet and trees. Lots and lots of trees. And a general absence of humans. Which after the year I've had, where including this one, I've moved 8 FRIKKIN TIMES jumping into unknowns, I could use a little rest.
And chopping wood, cutting trails and along with general winter maintenance stuff for a guy like me, is a sweet slice of Heaven. It's because I've always loved working hard, finding it an empowering, moving meditation.
After all, my Hero's Quest to embody my Sacred Masculine, is largely this evolving dance between the Spiritual and the physical. I've been trying to get these two joined together in a graceful embrace for like, eternity.
And now I have. Which brings me to this wondrously immense threshold of a Soul mission fruition, as I lock into launching on-line The Initiatory Journey To Awaken Your Sacred Masculine For Men & Women, in one weeks time. Oh my indeed ~
Hey M, I'm choosing to respond via email because ongoing phone texts, really don't work well for me. In reflection of your 9 texts in response to my earlier email, my take on our dance is breathtakingly simple: This is an extremely powerful and Gracefilled opportunity to show up as we now choose. To be alive and to love. Or not ~
As individuals and potential complements, companions and consorts of The Beloved's Love, as expressed through two fairly well-rounded and seasoned Souls ...
To alone have attracted each other is noteworthy however, only if you & I can rise to the occasion, by keep meeting these moments with the very best we have - with the wisdom we've learned and the struggles that have taught us accordingly.
Only you know for yourself if you've searched long enough, been disappointed enough and given up your struggles enough, to have cleared, cleaned and purified your Heart and ego enough, to receive and express and most of all - to EMBODY your Sacred now. Let alone, co-create Sacred Union on Earth with me.
Truly, this is SHOW & TELL TIME my dear ... said another way: This is the most perfect and precious time to show up for your Dream-Come-True. Because my hand to God/dess, I Am the man you've been looking searching and waiting for. And said yet another:
If you don't or can't or won't recognize this - and most important, avail yourself with intense interest and enthusiasm, not to mention Self-confidence then, simply put - you're just not ready to realize your Dream now. At least not with me.
The power of the Void Phase you and I both in, in our respective lives (and this I've learned from really strong, women mentors), is this IS WHERE OUR POWER LIVES - in how well we navigate when 'not knowing' and having to develop the EMPOWERED TRUST to help carry our way through.
Until you've grocked this one, you'll ever be searching for the inner strength and conviction to hold you in the moments, the Universe and life doesn't seem to be. Like now.
So to ask your phone text's questions M ... how to say ... are somehow unable to get the answers you seek. Soulfully, this carries more power: What can I do now to co-create what my Soul came here for - with this man I haven't physically met, though have exchanged some serious Mojo with?
Given all the wrinkles that have arisen these past few daze, do I recognize the Beloved in him and do I have the desire to keep dancing to find out - at least until the signs are clear that, either I can't keep up or he really isn't the One?
If you still have to ask this of me first, to give you the go-ahead clues and assurance to do this for your self, then - here we go again - you'd better wait for the next fella to come along. Or perhaps, wait for another opportunity to mold a guy into the man you think you want. I can't be more clear than this Sweet M.
As I've said, you first gotta know the answers within yourself. If you don't, then you've got more journey time along your way, until you do.
Most sincerely dear, I've felt your magic, your strength, your power and juicy passion. I've touched into your Soul Gifts, which have only invited me in deeper. I have gladly offered you mine in return and done all I know, to further our connection with what's been unfolding in my life, in real time.
If this doesn't cut it or do it or win it for you, than you're not the One for me. However, if you've got the stones and chops and Heart and willingness to dance, then plan on having the time of your life. No matter what.
Please take all the time to come to your wisdom M. And please don't text your answer. Hear from the Heart of me: show me your strength, your power, your passion, your aliveness and your interest in co-creating.
Or walk on by ~
Always Love To You,Keith
Good Morning M, I'm glad you found this post inspiring and even more so, I'm glad you chose to write and express yourself to me ~I really can't imagine what all you're going through, though I sure know what it's like to be sick and laid up, out of commission for as long as you have.
I've done my very best to stay connected with you and likewise, to attend to the voices within me, that have felt frustrated and impatient at not being able to speak to share and communicate.
As always, my main priority is to meet the energies that come up in me. To always listen to, embrace and gently hold or if challenging, redirect through my Heartspace, in efforts to transform them to be more comforting and soothing.
Needless to say, it's taken my lifetime to learn how to do this. And much more important, it's taken even longer to develop the will in the midst of the challenges, to do so.
As I've shared, a person's true character always reveals itself in adversity. When the crunch hits hard, is when you get to see not just how you manage and deal with the squeeze but where you are in your Soul's evolutionary journey as well. Or not.
And so I've been especially attentive to how I relate with you (first witnessing in myself), during these past many days and likewise, how you've chosen to relate with me. All this is very telling M and for me, a fascinating expose of our characters in stress.
As brief backstory: up until now, I've always been attracted to really strong women. What can I say, I love strength and a women's sense of her power in how she moves through life. And yet, after dealing with their strengths and power, I came to recognize that they too were learning how to weld and express their masculine Lifeforce consciously. And were themselves, deep in the learning curves of this discovery.
As with forceful guys, they were often head strong and willful and often pushy in needing to get their needs met. As with Humans in general, they often made it about me when I didn't easily comply to their wishes or choices ... hey, under our skins and sexual equipment and identities, we're really not so different after all.
As I've watched my thoughts and behaviors here, I've also watched yours in how you've related and reacted to me. And imagined what I, you and we would be like in relationship, especially when we don't get our needs met or attended to by the other.
Of course, there's no way to accurately tell, is there? And yet, for most people, their futures tend to follow their pasts. What you've seen, is what you'll get again.
I know you're hurting and in a very deep passage, perhaps one of the Soul Ages for you. I get this, as I'm no stranger to this hard process of Awakening. In this - as ever in times of crunch and squeeze - compassion, forgiveness and loving kindness goes a really long way, wouldn't you say?
Again, first with myself and in this case, then with you. This is my Self commitment, my values-in-action ... and without getting too high and mighty, my Sacred Masculine Code as well. Simply put: these values-in-action, my dear, are what define me.
I won't spend the energy going over and review our exchanges together, the pieces that felt really good and these that didn't. I have no desire or investment to make any points here, certainly not at your expense - knowing that whatever I would say, simply reflects my personality's uncertainty in opening up to the enormous currents, that have touched and caressed me so far.
Besides, I'm not too sure that whatever I might say, won't be spun around, in how I'm asking too much from you or am not satisfied with what you're able to give in your heavily weakened state. As mentioned, I absolutely will not wear the projections of another's discontent. At all.
Nor will I keep banging on a door that either isn't opening or simply can't, to meet and match me. However as a core value, I will do my best to listen when you speak to me.
As I've repeatedly said, I come from some heavily impacted and difficult relationship terrain. Though not to bemoan this, I also know I (and here's a really big word!) need the women I open up to, to be able to hold space for me in my tenderness and vulnerability. And therefore, not always make it about herself and yes (and here's where it tends to get sticky and tricky), their needs in the moment.
In this respect, who am I to ask this or anything else of you? You are a free agent, as am I. If we both don't clearly know what's available and possible between us and what's been revealed Itself to us, within us - and know how to honor and express this consciously, then I most certainly don't want to proceed.
I don't want a 'training partner' here or a women who either hasn't done her personal work or quite frankly, doesn't know how. I want a women who can stand strong in her conscious connection and alignment with their Source Self. Day in and day out. No matter what, as best she possibly can, just as I do my very best to do. I want it all!
A women who's not afraid of her strengths or tenderness - and has the life experience to know what to do when and how, even at the same time, if necessary. I want a women who will do what's necessary to keep making love happen.
I also know M, that unless there's this quality of consciousness shared between us, not only will the glorious energies not be able to manifest and express properly, they will tear us apart and shred our egos to their core. I've already done this and won't do it again, not with someone who isn't up to the task.
Please know, I'm not drawing a line in the sand between us - though I am within myself. This email is to state what I can do, what I commit to and what my values are in doing so. How you respond is 100% your business and an intimate reflection of what you're about and what your values-in-action are. Yes Sweet Pea, it's show & tell time.
I've already spent time in New Age LaLaland and have heard and spouted all the yada-yada I'll ever need to hear or say. I've already tried marching to other's drum rolls to earn their validation, approval and love. Been there and done all that. And now all I want the whole enchilada.
I ONLY WANT SACRED UNION.
And someone who is up to the Gift in bringing this about in their and in turn, our lives.
I truly hope and trust you're finding your way through this passage as consciously as possible and if at all possible, able to rest in the love, care and admiration I feel for you. Do with this what you will ~
Be very well
Only Blessings On Your Way,